My first weeklong treatment week is completed. Tired? Hell yes. It feels like it is a job. More like a job for me to get healthy again. Honestly it is me and my doctors both putting in the work together. It's stressful, but i'm willing to do it, so I can be the strongest I have been in a long time. This morning I was getting the infection on my elbow treated. I got a new silver plate bandage to hold it together. Hopefully this one stays on. I had to tape it together yesterday because it got all wet from the sweat and water, from when I showered. My bones are feeling the aftermath, more and more each day. But they are healing. It's taking some time, but I know my body is trying to push me past everything it just went through. It hurts, but I can stand it. I was just thinking, i'm not a wimp, and i'm willing to put up with the pain. Every week, i'm looking forward for one good thing, that may come my way. It could be seeing someone I love, getting further with my treatment, or heck even hearing that Spider-Man is back in the MCU. Do you know how happy that made me? I was sitting in the hospital lobby, literally wanting to scream out my excitement. At a time when I have all this shit going on, little things like that help me push forward. I've always said, Spidey has always been here for me through all the dark times, in each phase of my life. If I were to draw out a timeline, it would amaze you how much he always comes back at the right moment. Every time he comes back in my life, things always get better, little by little. So i'm taking that as a sign that something will finally work my way as I continue this walk along recovery road. Next week I hit 100 days of sweat. Once I complete that, I can finally rest my body and heal like a normal person. I swear, once i'm done with that, my body will get better quicker. I just want to complete it, since i'm almost at the finish line. After that, it's all about completing up this healing journey. Just like Peter Parker, hopefully I find my way back home, after being far from home. By home, I mean my center, and the home I wish to create away from all that's been done. The journey to the center of myself, I need help to get there. I currently have a lot of people driving alongside with me, to get me through, to get there me there. To help me become the driver of my mind and body again. With great power comes with great responsibility. I''m well aware i'm taking responsibility by having all this help. I may not feel so well, but when I reach my endgame, at least I can say, I did it, I won, we won. Because getting me through this is 100% a team effort, it's not just me, it is all of us. My doctors, my loved ones, my parents, and myself, we all will win, I know we will.
Photographer: Courtney Johnson
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Stories From My Life - CHAPTER 16: THE FINAL CHAPTER
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Stories From My Life
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