Parenthood. There comes a time in your life when your child leaves the nest. In this case, there comes a time when your child leaves the nest again... but the person he is leaving as, is someone completely different. 5 years ago I came home to work on an album. I ended up getting sick, diagnosed with a disease, and getting stuck at the home where I had just moved away from a year and a half earlier. Never in my life did I think this would all happen to me. My mom and dad had already dropped me off, we did the goodbyes, we did the move. That was that, then it all went to hell when my whole world was taken from me. When my world shattered, my parents world was screwed over too. They now had a son who was going blind, getting surgery after surgery, and put into daily intense treatment. My parents had to watch it all unfold. No one but us, knows how hard that time in our life was for us. It was devastating. Now all those years have passed and here we are now. I'm leaving the nest and this time, the whole state that I grew up in. I'm now leaving it all behind with the horrific experiences I just lived through. From Glaucoma to getting hit by the car. I'm leaving with those experiences now apart of me. This time I am an adult with many complex layers. Last time I wasn't even legal. It feels different this time, this time feels more real, more earned, and more right. Not that I didn't feel good moving the last time, this time just feels more like the right time for me. I couldn't have gotten to this point in my life without my parents. It took awhile, but my longer than 6 month stay at their home is finally coming to an end, 5 years later....
Mom and Dad. We are finally here. It's time for me to leave you now. I'm sorry that I stayed longer than the original 6 months I was supposed to stay. In a way, it worked out for the best that I got stuck here with you. I was out of your house and into the world. If i'm being honest, I wasn't that ready to be out in the world. I was young, but I was scared. After going through what I just went through, nothing is scarier than almost dying and all the hell with my eye. Now, i'm more than ready to take all that i've gone through and turn it into something more. You both have done so much for me. My hope for you is that I go out into the world and take our story and make sure everyone knows how I rose back up with the strength you gave me. I think about all that we've been through. How dad would hold my hand, when the needle pushed on through. Mom, all the tears that you would cry, as you watched me loose my sight, how I would have done anything to take us back to happier times. It has been so hard for us. Now we are gonna put that to rest. We know the work that has been done to my eye is temporary. I thank you for supporting and encouraging me to go out into the world and experience it while I can. I don't want to regret not living a life and living up to my full potential. 3 months ago I almost died. God left me here for a reason. That reason is for me to share the voice you both encourage me to speak up and use. I was so scared when I got sick and then when I got hit by the car. I was honestly more scared for you, because I couldn't stand the idea of you both not being able to live a life too, because of your sick child. Now we can all go live our lives. Thank you mom and dad for helping me to see when I couldn’t, helping me to walk again, and learning to accept what has happened to me, and make it into something better, something more. I will miss you both so much, and no matter who or what I become, I will always do my best to make you proud. I will do right by both of you. One day, I can and will give you the world. I know I will.
I love you my mom and dad,
always and forever, your baby boboy
Photographer: Courtney Johnson
What I'm Wearing: Flannel Jacket - Thrift Find, Sweater - Merona, Jeans - Forever 21
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Stories From My Life
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