Dear readers, sometimes what you have to do is walk the walk and talk the talk. In this case dance the dance. It's not even 2 weeks and i'm sort of fed up being back on this California soil. I'm not fed up with my surrounding but i'm fed up with some of the people here. So I went to the burger king in Union Square to check and see if they have the Detective Pikachu toys. They didn't, so I left. As I was leaving this weird woman pushed me hard and said I was in her way and that this was her corner of Burger King. I'm not even joking. Those were her exact words. I literally only came in this fast food joint to see if they had Pokemon toys... I didn't come here to argue about a corner. I saw she was probably mentally unstable. So I put my hands up in the air and let it go. I didn't want to have to deal with SFPD and have that be a welcome back present. She really pushed me hard though. So lesson of that issue is to make sure you bite your tongue when they are crazy like that. Starting a fight with a crazies is not worth it. I ended up going to a party with my mom. It was one of our families members birthday and I didn't want to miss it, because I promised him I would come. So I showed up and all I see is family that I haven't seen since October. The last public event I showed my face to was the Fatima. I try not to attend these things because it literally is one huge fake show. I can't stand these people. They act so nice and then when you turn around they begin to talk so much shit about you. So this woman, we'll call her Dumbo.. mainly because, I don't know if she knows this, but people call her Dumbo behind her back. No disrespect to the actual elephant who is flying in cinemas right now. Dumbo greeted my mom and asked where a certain member of our family was. This member couldn't make it and Dumbo had to drop her unwanted opinion. Dumbo said this person should have been here because when this person dies, no one will show up because this person doesn't go to events or gatherings. First off no one asked for this unwanted and unnecessary opinion. I love my island and I have respect for my elders, but some of the ways that these people act is so unfortunate. To have that be the first thing that pops up in her head. Really? In my culture and where my family comes from, parties and events are important, but you don't have to judge someone because they can't make it to this event. You don't know what is going on behind closed doors. For Dumbo to just think about the people showing up for someone when they pass away or for parties and what not, that's just fucked up. That is the one thing I don't like about Chamorros. They think parties are the whole world and that everyone in our community needs to show up and support because when it is our time of need, then they will feel they have to show up. The world doesn't work that way. It may be like that in Guam, but this America and that whole point of view is pointless. You people feel like it is a must that you show up. Then when you show up, all you do is judge and talk shit about everyone. I swear I went to a funeral once, and this other woman was like, this is so sad but this person who died did this bad thing and this bad thing. It was so disrespectful. I don't care what bad the person may have done, they didn't kill anyone, so shut your mouth and let this family grieve and let this person rest. Did they personally offend you? If you don't have anything nice to say, don't show up. I used to go to every single one of these events when I was kid. Going to this birthday party was a reminder of why I don't go anymore. I love the person that we went for, but I loathed half the people in that room. It was completely disappointing to hear what Dumbo said. Because Dumbo is not perfect and she thinks that she is so loved by every single person. News Flash, your'e not. Maybe if you changed your attitude and stopped pretending that you just slayed your circus show, then you would finally wake up and come back to reality like a normal person. I keep my distance from these events. I know how these people are. They act so nice and then they turn around and hate every little detail about you. It is just further proof that the family I have is the family I make. Not the family that the chammoro community thinks of as a whole. It's sad but true, I truly have outgrown these people and it just reminds me, this is not my place anymore. I still have a ways to go before I leave here. Not long, but still a good amount of miles. The only way i'm going to survive these next few chapters is by sucking it up and dancing this dance. People want to roll this way, i'll roll this way. I'll be laughing all the way to the town line as I put on my red shoes and dance. Because I can't live here for the rest of my life surrounded by all this hypocritical people who want nothing else, but to bring you down.
Photographer: Courtney Johnson
What i'm wearing: Sweater & Jeans - H&M
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Stories From My Life - Chapter 13
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