Who I’m Wearing Breakdown: Blazer: Thrift Find, Shirt: Nirvana Collection, Jeans: Levis 501, Shoes: Converse, Light Blue Pennyboard

Hey,
Month number one of hospital life is complete. I mean it is technically more than a month, but it has been one month since I started going here every day. My album release party is this weekend. Yes, 4th of July weekend. I'm pretty stoked. We couldn't get a venue so we are having it at my parents house. A lot of my loved ones are coming and i'm excited that we will all get to celebrate this body of work I have created. I'm learning my way around Sacramento. I found this old arcade on a penny board stroll in Old Town Sac. This town has this old school vibe to it, I actually dig it. It feels like a place stuck in the past. I love 80's movies and everything I have been seeing for the past month is like a trip to the past. I have been distracting myself from my underlining problems. I don't think i'm doing the best job since everything is obviously still on my mind, but i'm doing the best that I can. This will be the first time that I get to celebrate 4th of July along with my album. 2 holidays in one. I hope the party goes good. I can't promise that I won't get emotional. July 5th is also the 2nd anniversary of my grandmas passing. I don't really want to talk about that right now. With everything going on with my eye and my work in limbo, i'm already an emotional wreck. At least the arcade games could distract me from reality for a moment. I'm glad I found this arcade so I can escape every now and then. With what i'm going through, I need the escape. 
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photographer: Joey joannamariejoey

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Who I’m Wearing Breakdown: Sweatshirt: H&M, Shorts: H&M, Shoes: Cotton On

Hey,
I needed a moment to myself today. I asked my cousin if she could meet me down by the docs. Staying in the Sacramento area for my eye treatment has been a weird shift for me. I will admit it is a little peaceful here. It is kind of dead tbh. No one is really out, because I guess it is too hot for them? I'm not really sure. My meds have been draining me so much. I'm trying my best to adjust to them but i'm having a hard time. My pressure is still up. It is like an inner battle within me and my eye. I don't know how to control this. My doctor is such a sweet man and the nurses have been so loving to me. I'm really grateful for the treatment I have been getting. I feel like a burden though. I am the only guy coming in every week for treatment. This man has other people to take care of, yet he makes me his top priority. I know it is his job, but everyone knows he takes a little extra care with me. I am so fragile right now, like i'm a hot mess of emotions and the whole hospital knows that. I'm lucky Sacramento has little docks where I can go and clear my mind. Just relax for a moment in time and think of something good. I spoke to my producer and it looks like my album release party is still going to happen. We had to push it back a month because of my eye and everything that happened. It is going to be next week. I'm looking forward to it. At least I have something good to look forward to. For now i'm going to enjoy sitting with my new friends the ducks. Hopefully they hear me out as I vent about the pain I am going through.
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photographer: Joey joannamariejoey

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Who I’m Wearing Breakdown: Military Button Down: Forever 21 Men, Camo Flag T-shirt: American Apparel, Shorts: American Eagle, Shoes: American Eagle

START OF BOOK 1: CHAPTER 4

Hey,
Summer is here. I have spent the last week getting adjusted to this new hospital life. I have literally been going there everyday since Let The Music Be Your Guide came out. The day my album came out another blessing came out into this world. My sister gave birth way early to her 2nd little boy, Titus. So we both gave birth that day, isn't that something, lol. I'm glad the baby is doing okay and what day for an album release. At least i'll get to cherish the memory of going to a Carls Jr at 12am with my 3 year old nephew as he eats his chicken stars. It is the little things like this that I like to remember. It just makes the day a little more special.  As the heat heats up faster than ever, I guess shorts will be my attire to my new everyday life at the hospital. My doctor says I have to come in everyday to monitor my eye pressure. I'm starting to feel what this disease is. My eye is starting to hurt more. He has put me on some pills that is going to drastically drain me to help lower the pressure. I'm not sure if I am ready for that. I never expected my summer to start out like this. I am supposed to be on stage performing, instead I am sweating my ass of in the hospital waiting room. This is going to be an interesting summer. Literally all my plans are changed because of this disease. I hope it all pans out, I really do. Each sunrise and sunset will determine how this all plays out. We shall see.
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photographer: Joey @joannamariejoey  

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