CHAPTER 4: The Times They Are A-Changing
Entry #36: "Mood 4 Eva"
Clearly, I have been living in my 90's bubble watching anything and everything from my childhood. Since we can't physically go out into the world at the moment to explore, I have turned to my childhood to build upon my adulthood thoughts. That may sound weird, but it works. It has been the only thing keeping me sane during this weird time. There is something about the magic of Disney. Disney has always been here for me. For any form of inspiration that I need, they always have something to inspire me within their large and vast catalog. I'm not a modern dude. I may live in a modern world with streaming and Disney+, but I still use cassette tapes, boom boxes, blu rays, all forms of physical media. Physical media is a comfort for me. As much I have been striving to seek discomfort, it's nice to have physical media to center my mind and bring me back to simpler times. As we head into mid-July, I'm trying my best to stay centered. The last few months have not been ideal, from quarantine to being stuck in Northern California, to the sinus and ear infections that prolonged for way too long. I'm trying to refocus and get that mood back that I loved. It's hard, trying to get into a good mood when everything is crashing around you. That's why I take time to just let myself get into the mindset of my childhood. There was something so special about the little moments. Those little moments will help tide me over until it is the right time to live a more full life outside of quarantine. I must try to remain unbothered by judgments made around me. Put it in one ear and out the other. Being locked away and away from the life I was just stepping into, I know some people can be heavily judgmental about all of it. It sucks, but I'm so far beyond that. I must remain in a mood that will continue to launch me into something better. People can think I haven't been productive, they can think that I just stay in and watch Disney movies, eat Vegan food, and workout, but I'm more than that. Those things help me to do what I need to do so mentality can be in tip-top shape. It can be hard staying sane during these uncertain times, but we have to try. We are here for a greater purpose. Some days are harder. You and I both know that. What we do to change that, that's our business. No one needs to understand that. It's just for us, and that's how it should be.
Photographer: RL BAZA
What I'm Wearing: Sweater - H&M, Pants - Uniqlo