CHAPTER 4: The Times They Are A-Changing
Entry #82: Here Comes Your Man
WOO! We made it to the end of this shitty year. Let's call it out for what it is! It was a shitty year! To think that I've gone through 4 cycles of my life within this year. New York part 1, Home in SF, New York part 2, and Quarantine. That is a true rollercoaster. Strangely enough, I am grateful for it. It's been a long, but fairly quick year that has opened everyone's eyes. It doesn't escape me that I am one of the lucky ones. Honestly, If I stayed in New York, idk what would have happened. I will always repeat that. I am grateful to be healthy and genuinely happier than I was midway through this last chapter of my life. Quarantine has been frustrating to say the least. But, it opened up creative avenues that I needed to tap into. Without that, the base for my 2021 would not be planted. I may have loathed 2020, but I am thankful that, that horrid year let me leave peacefully. I got to spend New Years Eve with my family. Most of whom I have obviously not seen in awhile. From Courtney (and Aaron), and Dash. To have these last moments of an honest to god, weird ass year, be spent with my family, it meant the world to me. It also kind of reassured my heart that everything will be okay. 2020 was just not it, for all of us. But to be able to stand here, healthy and with smiles on our faces, that in itself is everything. We are growing up and getting older. We are evolving, min by min, hour by hour, day by day. My sister Courtney with her relationship, Dash moving to DC, me on a path back to who I used to be... but better. We are making it out of this horrid year, alive. We are moving forward. And we will continue to move forward, no matter what. I don't know what will happen this year. All I know is, it is a going to be a big year for me. How that year is handled, I'll just have to wait and see. 2021, I come in peace. I thought 2020 was going to be it for me. That just blew up on my face. Honestly, I'm okay with that. If that did not happen, I would not be able to be here writing these thoughts right now. It blew up on my face, so that way I could just have a little more depth in this brand new year. I am so excited to see where this goes. I know one chapter of my life, is clearly ending... but this new one... this new one that will kick off 2021... I have a really good feeling about it, more than I did 2020... and that in itself, should say a lot. Welp... here we are right now. 2021. We made it to 2021. What's next?