Fine Line (feat. Triple Five Soul)

This page is made in collaboration with Triple Five Soul . Triple Five Soul sent over their new Brian Hoodie from their Spring/Summer 2020 collection. I love this brand and their classic streetwear. The hoodie was comfortable and will keep me warm for the chilly S/S days in New York and California. Check out their brand new collection out now! 

CHAPTER 3:  Between The City Of Stars,The Moon, & New York City
Entry #20: " Fine Line"

Dear readers,
I'm all packed now. I set aside everything that I'm taking back to California and left some things in boxes so the boys can take care of it for me, until whenever the heck I can return. It's weird. It doesn't feel real. I don't think it will hit me until I say goodbye to them on Sunday. Tomorrow I am going to spend some time with Chris and go over some things. I feel like I am leaving the boys with a part of myself. I know that part of myself will be taken care of while I am away. I think by now it is pretty clear, I won't be returning to NYC first. I gotta go somewhere else before I step foot in the big apple again. We will talk about that tomorrow. Not right now. Mom and dad have been resting a lot. This whole trip has drained them. It has been a whirlwind for us. We did not think this would happen like this. In a way, I am very lucky it did. God knew it was always meant to be this way. I just never saw it coming. I snuck out while they rested. I got on the subway and headed to Union Square. I come here a lot to think. I walk through the farmer's market and grab a vegan muffin, then I go do work at the book shop. It is my usual routine. Today will be my last day doing that for a while. In a way, it is kind of good that I am by myself today, because I can have these much needed inner conversations that I need to have to prep myself for some time away from the life I have known for the last 3 months. There is this beautiful view of everything from Burlington Coat Factory. I know that location is so random, but, it's true. I headed to Burlington to see that view, one more time before I leave. It is not the ideal place for a view of everything, but, it was the first place I found a city view for myself when I first visited New York last year. I came to New York, a year ago, as of next week. Isn't that something. I'm leaving New York, one year after I first arrived to visit. This view is like the mountain top after a victory of sorts. I stand up here and see all that I have been able to accomplish over the last year. Not many people will get to say they have been able to complete what I have completed. 

For me, it is a symbolization of hope. If I could come to this city and let my guard down, and be able to re-fall in love with myself, my faults, and my flaws. All while finding a way to open up my heart to the world, and in return, have the world open it's arms back up to me, then I know that whatever happens, it is all going to be more than okay for me. I'm really lucky that I get to be in a position where all the layers of depth that I have benefit me, rather than drag me down. As I look out this window, with this simple beautiful view, I start to replay, not just the last 3 months, but the whole year. As I replay all the memories in my head, I look forward to whatever version this life of mine will evolve into next. Because I know whatever happens will be what is meant to be. 

​Love, Roydom Lucian ​

Photographer: Chris Lopez

What I'm Wearing: Hoodie - Triple Five Soul, Jeans - Express, Boots- Dr Martens, Beanie - Vans